#mentalhealth

This is the first weekend in god knows how long that I've spent completely carefree and relaxed. I know it might come back to bite me if I end up jobless for months, but I intend to enjoy this brief moment of freedom to the fullest. Yes, I felt like cr-p when I was told. But the feeling didn't last long. I realized quickly how much I'd lost perspective while being su-ked into TD. I deeply appreciated some of the great teammates I had, and definitely did not appreciate my most recent manager, the bad leadership that set the toxic culture, or the badly designed job. Anyway, I wish all the best to my now-jobless fellows and to my former colleagues.

I gave this job years of my life and kept pushing even when it was draining me. They took everything they could and never slowed down. Now there’s nothing left in the tank, and I’m done trying to refill it. Package or not, I’m walking away.

How are you all so mentally strong to take the continuous layoffs, relocate states for RTO and adapt to so many life changes?

It totally amazes me what T employees go through every day and still try to put everything aside and focus on work.

I lost 3 colleagues today and sick to stomach returning to ghosted work location.

May be I am getting too old for this, but ever since I joined T, I have seen people in my team go every year.

I just need them to get it over with. If I’m laid off, so be it. But the constant waiting and stress are wrecking my mental health and starting to affect my physical health too. I need this to be over.

Anyone else feel like this is taking an illegal turn of directions? Constructive discharge and hostile work environments? Instead of just laying people off the normal way, we’ve turned into this…. I hope that everyone affected will utilize their benefits and protect their mental and physical health. Crazy what is going on after the last few years. I guess this is our reward for being loyal to the company.

I recently left exxon after several years of anguish. The last couple of years were unbearable for me. I was on mental health leave for the last 6 months and finally resigned. I cannot get over the persecution and harassment I recieved at exxon. I feel that every where I work from now on will be as bad as exxon. I have not looked for work because of this fear. I have many skills and could land a job easily but my fear keeps me from applying. It has only been about 5 months since I have left and I still have nightmares and bad thoughts about my time at exxon. My therapist says it will take time to heal and forget about the trauma. I recently had lunch with some old co workers and of course they brought up the supervisors and managers which tormented me. I fell into a deep depression because I was reminded of the past. It has gotten better but I still have days where I fixate on the horrific experience. I was advised to find a new job to occupy my mind and this could help my recovery. For those of you who think I am exaggerating I was the victim of s-xual harassment and verbal abuse by a male boss. HR investigated and of course found no hard evidence or wrong doing. It was my word against his and he won. The witness who saw the harassment did not collaborate my story as she feared for her job. This monster is still employed by exxon and probably will retire with a nice pension while I have to find a new career. All of the male supervisors and managers at exxon are perverts. They all want to talk to the young pretty girls and sit on the desks. Pay attention next time a pretty woman enters the room see all the males flock to her like flies to honey. Some female employees use this to their advantage but I chose not to. As one poster said "there is something seriously wrong at exxon".

I’m increasingly surrounded by colleagues who show little drive to deliver real value or contribute meaningfully. Instead, many seem more focused on pulling others down—especially when someone is actually trying to push work forward. My supervisor appears completely disengaged; he barely puts in effort himself and shows no interest in supporting the team or addressing these dynamics.
This environment has become unsustainable for me. It feels like the clearest signal yet that it’s time to move on. I’m actively looking for a new role and hoping to make that transition soon—I just can’t keep operating in a place that’s draining me like this. It’s starting to affect my mental health, and I need to get out before it gets worse.

For anyone who was retained, are you having a hard time focusing this week? Our team was hit pretty hard and it's hard to focus during meetings where you know certain people should be there. Yes, some of those that were let go were my friends, but it just makes me very sad.

With all of this stress from increased expectations, career stagnation, and drop in benefits, I’d like to remind you is that all it takes to go on short term disability for mental health is 3 doctors appointments that say you’re depressed.

I recently got piped out of my favorite place to work not. They were trying to fire me at all costs. I was alienated, isolated and made ti feel unwelcome. I truly hated to come in everyday and see those persons. I was ready to leave and accepted my date. No matter what I did the supervisor had something negative to say. It was all part of the plan. My design software was removed and I was told I could not get it back. I could not do my job without it. It was a relief when I failed the pip. I did not sign the pip and was told I would be fired if I did not. I was terminated for performance. I got unemployment because I got fired. So now I am working at a smaller company. The place is heaven compared to that shith ole exxon. I can do meaningful work and it is appreciated. I feel like part of a team and the place is not toxic or dysfunctional. I make about 70 percent less and I got 4 weeks vacation. The insurance is better than exxons was. The most important thing is my mental health. I feel better now and I don't dread going to work. The company needed an employee that could innovate and improve processes and testing methods. I have found a place that needs and values my talents. I had a horrible time at exxon. So the grass can truly be greener at another company. Too many employees get stuck because of the high pay but is it worth you mental health.

Is it just me or does anyone else feel like we now work in an alternate universe? It’s like a new operating manual has gone out to a select few as to how we all should behave and function in our roles and interact with others and none of it makes any sense at all? I constantly feel like I am being gas-lit.

It crosses my mind daily which I know is not healthy. I try not to think about it and focus on my job but I find it impossible to keep the thoughts and fear entering my thoughts.

I'm telling you, this job is harmful. You need to plan your exit. Dedicate some time to networking and applying elsewhere. Otherwise, this place will ruin your mental and physical health.

I calculate my savings every single week just to see if I can afford to quit. The daily stress and negativity have long stopped being worth the salary. It's gotten so bad that I've been considering some very risky financial choices just for my peace of mind. And to think I used to love my job and recommend Cisco to anybody and everybody as a great workplace.

Never stop networking and checking job boards even if you're comfortable. A better environment makes all the difference for your mental health. Open Text isn't the end of the road, so plan your next move carefully.

I just can't get myself to do it even when I know I desperately need it.

I can’t tell if I’m unhappy because work is work, or because this specific job is wearing me down. Some days I think I’d feel this drained anywhere, then other days I’m pretty sure Juniper is making it worse. I keep wondering if a different company would lift some of this weight, or if I’d just carry it with me anywhere.

Lately I feel like I literally have nothing left to give. The relentless pressure we have to deal with non-stop and the constant stress have drained me completely dry. I'm absolutely exhausted. The one and only reason I'm still here is that finding another job is impossible right now.

Usually, I have no issues with self-motivation, but this last round of layoffs has made me especially disheartened. It’s getting more and more obvious by the day that this company cannot be repaired. Giving up on people, cutting back on business hours, switching to cheaper technology tools, and on and on and on…that does not signify a healthy company that is expecting a bo-m.

What are you doing to stay focused other than making sure you can pay your mortgage/rent, feed your family, etc.?

I tell myself that I am going to start job searching, but I’m just totally wiped out by the end of the day to put any serious effort into it.

I feel trapped. I have no idea what is next. So much for “nothing is changing other than the company name on your paycheck”. One of PK’s great lies.

My head is spinning with all of this uncertainty and constant change in priorities.

Everything s*cks so bad, it’s only going to get worse from here.

Without any remote the travelling back and forth is just plain exhausting and mentally draining and with the uncertainty of the company on whether layoffs are gonna happen especially with the amounts of things changing it's just suffocating. Really hate this.

We'll all lose our minds before this endless wave of layoffs is finally done.

Where are all the “JOBS” that Amazon promised would be available to the 16,000 they laid off this month? Where is all the “SUPPORT” they claimed they would provide us to find alternative jobs within Amazon? Where is the “…..WORLDS BEST EMPLOYER” support Amazon promised us? Why are all the jobs disappearing from the internal jobs site all the sudden?

This horrendous company, albeit they paid me great money and moved my family and I across the country, bait and switched me only to be laid off and unable to afford moving back to where I called home. So here I am, sitting in front of a laptop looking for non-existent jobs from hiring managers that fail to respond to a courtesy slack introducing myself and explaining why I am reaching out (basically that I’m about to be homeless) today. When they do respond back, why are they telling me the role has since been filled when it was JUST posted three days prior?! I am OVER qualified for positions I am applying for and STILL no response.

I have been with Amazon almost a year and a half. The most recent Forte landed me TT, as confirmed by receiving a copy of the letter of recommendation from my L8 supervisor. I have had three different L8 letter of recommendations sent to one specific hiring manager, whom responds back to them stating they will reach out, only to have zero interaction with said “hiring manager”.

I have been assured, multiple times from a reputable source, that I will be offered a role before the date ends, but how am I honestly sleep at night when I have yet to receive any communication. Do not think, for so much as a second, that I am an HV1/2 or even HV3, I have proof I am TT. If someone who is “valuable” to Amazon, why do they allow me to feel like that nasty urinal cake from the men’s room of a sleezy capital hill dive bar?

This is absolutely depressing to say the least, this company has me sitting here contemplating things nobody should ever have to contemplate. I truly feel like I am being buried alive with a plastic stir stick to breath from.

Wish I had someone to help, someone like myself as I help my team find jobs. Ironically, to which I have already landed 3 of my 7 direct reports with roles before their severance date ends. Meanwhile I will likely be unemployed come May since nobody is helping ME find a job. How’s that for “… WORLDS BEST EMPLOYER”?!

I thought moving to a giant like BNY would accelerate my career. Instead, it's stalled it. The regret is so deep I'm actively trying to reverse course after just 18 months. The supposed "prestige" and extra cash mean nothing when you're miserable every day.

Sitting in your corner office you believe you've climbed the mountain but yet it don't feel like it .another mountain appears.bought the house bought the car provided for your family yet your miserable and sad is this it. 50 years gone and im still chasing the someday ill have earned my freedom and sit back.that someday never comes.what was it all for,money can't fix it ,achievement can't fix it. only you inside can fix yourself and wake up and just be a humanbeing nothing else matters.no fear of anything!

It's so tiring to be focused on the possibility of losing your job 24/7. I'm always saving money to the point I can't enjoy my hobbies anymore. I don't know the last time I bought a book or a game because I can't justify the expense even if I can afford it because I could potentially be laid off any day now. This is a very sad way to live and nobody responsible for it seems to care.

Almost nothing on this website is factual. Stop getting su-ked in. Focus on what you can control: document your work, follow official info, and protect your career and mental health.

Have the best day of your life and don’t let anyone be your bad day.

Cigna just merged dental & mental health. Wow, Sean Carroll is going to be 2x busy for the same pay. Mental Dental, they should just let Dr. Seuss lead cigna at this point.

Here is my story. I made it 13 years at exxon before before quitting. No retirement for me except some of the pension lump sum. The lying a hole hr snake said I would not get anything but I got a little. I made several million dollars during my time at exxon and at my other company. I left with about 2.1 million in my 401k and a lump sum payout of only 230k. I left without any notice. I just stopped coming in to work. I truly hated exxon in the end and could not stand the supervisors and managers. The group was so toxic and gossipy. Eventually exxon sent me a letter of job abandonment and paid my vacation time. It was the best decision and feeling of my life. The money I made was more than enough for me to live on. I kept on working in order to get the medical benefit and higher pension payout but in the end it was not worth the pain and mental anguish. I was seriously thinking of working till 60 at exxon. I now travel the world visiting all of europe, Asia and south america. I got great medical insurance that is more expensive but better than exxon's was. I left in mid 2025 and my financial advisor has already increased my portfolio by almost 250,000 dollars. I live a very frugal life and have no payments as everything I own is paid off. I can live on as little as 2100.00 dollars a month. I so wanted to tell my supervisor to f k off and cuss them out but did not get the chance to. So in the end money was the key to my freedom and happiness. If you are miserable quit and leave before you suffer undue mental damage. This is my story and I hope it helps others who are going through the same he-l I was. I do not want to work anymore as exxon has ruined the experience for me. If I find employment that I can help and succeed in I may try. Good luck to all who play the game but remember the game is rigged at exxon. I had a horrible experience at exxon and hated every moment.

I’ve learned the hard way over my career that stressing over a job takes a devastating toll on your health and well-being. We also know performance has little to no impact on who gets laid off. Believing you can curry favor by working yourself raw, only to feel guilty later for not doing enough, helps no one. Do the bare minimum professionally, but don’t go the extra mile. Always be on the lookout for other opportunities. Don’t take anything personally, and stop stressing about office politics or the next potential layoff. Be good to yourself.

Now I can't even properly relax on a Saturday due to Monday-related anxiety. What they're doing is destroying us, and they couldn't care less.

I ignored the signs for too long and now my health is paying the price. I wish I had listened to my gut and started job hunting the moment I felt the constant pressure. This job isn't worth your wellbeing.

I spent most of my career going all in, staying late, fixing things no one asked me to fix. Lately I’m realizing the extra effort rarely changes outcomes or benefits me all that much, it just burns me out faster. I’m trying to do what’s required, not everything possible, and reminding myself work doesn’t deserve all my energy. In other words, I'm trying to give back exactly as much as I'm getting.

As a long time UMAC, I can truly say since this centralization my mental health has taken a sharp decline! The new processes that change every 15 minutes, it’s just too much!

Among other things, I am diagnosed with ADHD and PTSD. I work with a great care team to manage these, but it is still often life-disrupting. Part of my PTSD directly intersects with commuting to my PulsePoint, which like many here feels pointless because not one person from my team is in my state much less in my office. This has gotten worse recently and is affecting my wellbeing, as well as worsening other symptoms which in turn adversely affects my ability and performance.

However, I've never sought accommodations for my disabilities and I am nervous, especially since there can be disbelief or stigma around them. For example, I am worried that if I ask to be exempt from office requirements, it will make me more likely to get RIFed down the line somehow. Or otherwise get me on upper mgmt's radar in a bad way. I know there are ADA protections, but I also know that there are many ways to make it seem unrelated.

I am curious if you or someone you know has had experience seeking acommodations at this company, good or bad or neutral. Thank you!

I just got laid off, and weirdly, I'm fine? I thought I'd be freaking out, but I just feel numb. Maybe I'm in shock, or maybe I was just so done with this place that it's a relief.

I am in my forties and have tried all the usual advice, eating better, walking outside, staying active. None of it touches the exhaustion that comes from constant overwork. At some point it stops feeling personal and starts feeling like the job is designed to drain people no matter how careful they are.

The stress is getting to be too much. I want to ask for a short mental health break but I'm worried it'll backfire and cost me my job. Any advice from people who've done it?

Just wondering if I'm the only one who started therapy recently because of this job. Almost all of my stress is from work. I was even thinking about medication because of it.

There’s no way to maintain mental health when layoffs happen back to back with no breathing room. We can’t relax or focus on our work because we know it’s never over, and more cuts are always coming in a few weeks. This is mental torture, plain and simple.